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He who loves me,
He who cares for me,
He who holds me in His hands,
He who never lets me go.He who calls me,
He who chooses me,
He who keeps me under His wings,
He who steadies my heart.He who disciplines me,
He who forgives me,
He whose mercy never fails,
He who never lets me fall.He who strengthens me,
He who sustains me,
He who gives me His life,
He who is forever faithful.He is my Dad,
He is my King,
He is my God,
To Him my heart sings.©djklmnopi 11:32 10.22.2015
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People can love you to the moon and back and you’d still get disappointed with them. God loves you to the moon and beyond and He never disappoints.
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Life is God’s novel. Let Him write it.
~ Isaac Bashevis Singer
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This Love
You
Can be my redemption
or my destruction.
And I
Might be your salvation
or a wrong inclination.
We
Can be an institution
or a twisted illusion.Grab my hand
and we will try to see
where this road leads.
Don’t let go
even when it seems
the end is near.You
Will be my affirmation
of this affection.
And I
Will be your declaration
of this devotion.
We
Will swim in our emotions
and drown in our passion.Grab my hand
and we will try to see
where this road leads.
Don’t let go
even when it seems
the end is near.This love
A revolution
They view
With aversion©djklmnopi
08.06.15 11:32 -
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Been A While
Sometimes you just want to tell someone what has been happening, or write it down and hopefully someone will be interested to read it. But then again, nah! I don’t want to bore you with my life story. :P
I’ve discovered Easter, I still walk in valleys at times, and desert on other times, yet I know very well my God is with me, always with me. And busy months followed Holy Week – Mission Sundays, weddings after weddings – but the most important event, I must say, would have to be the moment God told me that the hour has come and my salvation is nearer than thought of – this is in relation to the work I’m in for 12 years now. Few years back, I prayed hard for a decision I am trying to make and God gave me the word – to wait for harvest time. Just few months back, after being persecuted yet again in this job that I’m in, God gave me consoling words one after the other, day after day, capped off with the verse from Romans. So now I am looking forward to God’s fulfillment of this promise. :)
And I ask, whoever will come to read this, to also pray for me and for the next step I will be needing to make – to entrust my future to God. And if it is not too much to ask, kindly include us in your prayers so we can all make it to Krakow next year for the World Youth Day! :) THANK YOU!
Listen to me, you descendants of Jacob, all the remnant of the people of Israel, you whom I have upheld since your birth, and have carried you since you were born. Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you. (Isaiah 46:3-4)
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Even When I Am In This Valley, I Praise You
I am in the valley, the ‘white space’ in my walk with the Lord – the space where you know He’s there but you just can’t see or hear Him. I feel abandoned, let down, disappointed, and yet I know He’s gotten me all secure and safe. It’s just that my heart struggle to accept some things and prefer to enjoy the hurt because the hurt is there but the promise unseen. Yet, His promise, His Word stands firm, it is the only thing that is eternal and lasting, the only truth in all these mess I am in. For the past days I have been praying, “Lord, please speak to me… please talk to me… please…” and like what I told a friend, it felt like an off-air signal on the radio, not even static. I would read His Word each morning to console me that all is not lost and that He is there, always there. I tried reading between the lines, of figuring out what’s going on, of looking for His will yet the more I try, the more I get side-tracked, lost and frustrated. As much as making sense, they don’t. So imagine my delight when I finally opened yesterday’s Faith Gateway devotional “When You Can’t Feel God“. And I know, He has opened the door I’ve been banging on for the past days to slip me this message. This white space necessitates me to walk by faith and not by sight. I clearly do not see any thing that has been promised, I witnessed it being taken away actually. Right now, clearly, His promise is the only thing I have, His Word, His faithfulness, Him – my God.
For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now the one who has fashioned us for this very purpose is God, who has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.
Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. For we live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it. (2 Corinthians 5:1-9)
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Left My Heart in Lent
So, Easter came.
People celebrated Christ’s victory in their lives. I celebrated with them, even when my heart breaks and aches, my victory unseen and unfelt, I got more questions than answers. Will I say I’m misunderstood? Maybe.
I will be honest. Easter came yet my heart felt like Lent. It’s like the flowers have bloomed in spring yet my heart remained in the icy cold winter. I wanted to step into the garden and take in the beauty of spring. Believe me, I do and I pray for it. I was even looking forward to it with all positivity and expectations. Expectations are such downers…
Please do not rush me. Please do not tell me “how dare you think like that” or judge me for being un-Christian and doubtful. I know God’s victory for me will come, but right now, I cannot see it and I do not know what to do but hope. And this hope sometimes get swallowed up in pity and tears. What am I getting all hung up on? That a person decided in his heart he doesn’t like me? No. That not a single person I liked would like me back, they can but they won’t. Period. Self-pity at its core. It’s not you, it’s me. Something must be wrong with me. Yet God never ever created anything wrong, all He created is good and pleasing and beautiful. So where do I fit in?
Change of perspective, they say it’s all about perspective. But please let me wallow a bit in this – I have been here before but not quite the same, not this close to the light at the end of the tunnel only to be suck back in the tunnel. This time it was (more…)
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He Will Make Everything Beautiful
My dear Father who loves giving surprises has began His work… and I’m still uncertain where this is leading. All I know and all I hold on to right now is the Word He gave me this morning from Ecclesiastes: “He has made everything beautiful in its time.” And He will make this circumstance I am in right now beautiful as well, in His time, in His perfect time. And knowing God, there is just no way I can fathom or even imagine what He can possibly do for me.
Sometimes I would find myself trying to figure it out, which will only frustrate me obviously. I went through hell yesterday feeling insecure, cheated, questioning and stupid. I thank God for surrounding me with discerning people who knows to say the right thing as I grapple for His Word the whole day yesterday. It was already evening when I finally see the word HOPE and TRUST which was staring at me all day long, which in my insecurities and questionings I failed to see.
The best thing for me to do right now, though it may not be the easiest, is to TRUST HIM WHOLLY and LEAN ON HIS UNDERSTANDING and HAND OVER THE PEN TO HIM (refills and all) for Him to write my story and BE PATIENT. Not a matter of “OR” but AND’s … I have to fulfill the four! Not easy… Yet possible. By prayer, with thanksgiving, possible. Please pray with me. Thank you.
Pixies & Stardust 