Morning Thoughts on the 1st of April

 

This Lent has been about crucifying and crucifying – my affections, my weaknesses, offering them to God. I wasn’t always there, doing it right, yet God is patient and is keeping me.

On the drive, what I thought was people leaving me and people making life hard for me was simply my wanting to please people and my affection making things hard for me and that God do really keep people away from me not because they’re not good or that I wasn’t good but simply because God wants me to learn what it means that HE IS ENOUGH, and to understand how relationship works, that I do not need people to like me or talk to me to validate who I am or my worth because my worth is found in Him alone – something that I know yet fails to live by. 

When I live in this worth, of being found in Christ, there is peace and joy. Admittedly at times I still falter and wish for affirmation, validation, confirmation from other people – habits are hard to break. Yet I pray that slowly God will help me overcome all these affection that I may love fully and find love also in full. 

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And he is the calmness in the chaos in me. The clarity of my hazy mind and the the certainty of my changing heart.

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This Love

You
Can be my redemption
or my destruction.
And I
Might be your salvation
or a wrong inclination.
We
Can be an institution
or a twisted illusion.

Grab my hand
and we will try to see
where this road leads.
Don’t let go
even when it seems
the end is near.

You
Will be my affirmation
of this affection.
And I
Will be your declaration
of this devotion.
We
Will swim in our emotions
and drown in our passion.

Grab my hand
and we will try to see
where this road leads.
Don’t let go
even when it seems
the end is near.

This love
A revolution
They view
With aversion

©djklmnopi
08.06.15 11:32

A Cup of Tea

Remember October
When the leaves start to change their colors
A book in one hand, a cup of tea in the other
By the lake I stare out to wonder

Remember November
By the leaves, the path is covered
A book in one hand, a cup of tea in the other
By the park I sit wrapped in my sweater

Remember December
The cool wind blows the start of winter
A book in one hand, a cup of tea in the other
Cold and alone, I wait for Spring and wonder

10.17.14 06:33
©djklmnopi

When people tell me to put God second…

When people tell me to put God second… I don’t understand. It doesn’t make me mad, it makes me sad. What can be more important than our time with God? It’s not even a tenth of the time we give to the world! He doesn’t even force us or require us or pay us to spend time with Him yet He showered us with so much than we deserve even with the very little attention we give Him.

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Unworthy Yet Loved

It’s always better to see that we are undeserving and yet loved and getting what we do not deserve than to feel we are worthy and oblige the world to do our will, step on people somewhere in the process and see that we are truly undeserving. The effects on both situations, I’ll always go for gratitude over disappointment.

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