Life throws events in haphazardly and kinda expect you to figure it out and survive it. Often it seems like that. And to find myself in a situation I never imagined is truly a blow in my I-know-what-I’m-getting-into stance in life. I have often heard and being told to step out of my comfort zone, to step into the waves and move from the shore – well, HELLO WAVES! I, myself, am surprised with the things that I’ve done for the past weeks, months, and surprised as well to how I’ve handled situations – sometimes poorly, other times I think I did okay.
One thing I am certain is, I do not regret anything – stepping out of the comfort zone, going for something my heart wants, jumping into the middle of the waves – no regrets. It was definitely scary, and it still is, yet I also see in all this how God has been faithfully keeping me from drowning and how patiently He waits for me to act. Sometimes I struggle with His timing, His time frame, His idea of love and sacrifice yet He is ever-present and reminding me to trust, to wait, to hope and to obey. Well, the last one is the toughest one for me, because I have a stubborn heart. If you can get away with something, won’t you? But He has been patiently reminding me, forgiving me, His patience for me, I HAVE NO WORDS!
I am writing this down for the reason that I haven’t written anything recently here as my thoughts are lately too personal for sharing. And at the same time, writing this down to share and pray for other people who might be going through the same as I am – take courage, stay steadfast, He is in the waiting, (as the song goes…). Definitely, God is in the waiting.
And I need also to be reminded of His Word.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. ~ 2 Corinthians 10:5