I will live through all the wrongs with Your Truth.
I will trust through all the wait with Your Word.
I will see through all the pain with Your Love.


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For Julie … God bless on your surgery!

And for all of us facing trials.  God has went before us, He is faithful, His love endures forever, His Word is our refuge and strength.  Be strong and take heart! Remember what Jesus said, “in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)




Previously I have called Lent the “white space”, the “white noise” of God, the period where winter turns to spring and it becomes cold and eerily quiet, it’s beautiful yet eerie.  This time, the battle rages on but our God is ever faithful.

I have been struggling internally with all the emotions and delusions I have – of the deceit and lies the devil feeds my mind.  I am unwanted, I am alone, I am made to be alone in this world, I will not find love, I will forever be left behind – name the lies, the enemy has it.  Yet, God, in His loving mercy and almightiness knew beforehand what will happen and has sent forth the weapons and help for me.  Well, He could have just stopped it but He didn’t, like with Job’s story.  And as for me, I could let the enemy fill me with lies and not use the weapons God has been providing me.

Yet here we are, here I am.  Faced with all these lies and deceit, God has been feeding me with my dose of Daily Bread, with His Word of Truth and Mercy.  It’s not easy, it sounds  Continue reading

Hurt? Hope.

Whenever we are tired and hurt, our response often is to hide, to run away, to deny, to turn around, to be cast down.  To feel hurt is okay, it makes us human, it evidently shows we have a heart and we can feel.  It is good to feel – it is our check and balance in life.  To feel tired, to feel offended, to feel hurt.

It is also good to know that every time we hurt, every time that we want to scream and ask ‘why?’, every time we feel there’s no way out and we’re pushed to the wall – it’s wonderful to know we have this hope, a real hope, the light at the end of the tunnel, we have God.

Jeremiah is one of the prophets I love reading about.  Jeremiah lived through the horror of the exile and he saw God’s hand in the salvation of the Jews from exile.  He saw how the people of Israel has disobeyed God and He saw God’s mercy towards them.  He was a part of that twisted and disobedient generation yet He held firm to what he know about God.  He is someone who knows God and therefore He understands God and He knows that no matter what, even when physically he’s tired and mentally he’s exhausted, Jeremiah still put his hope in the God he knows – the God of mercy and of love.

We may go through deep waters, we may be exhausted with life’s problems, Continue reading