I am in the valley, the ‘white space’ in my walk with the Lord – the space where you know He’s there but you just can’t see or hear Him. I feel abandoned, let down, disappointed, and yet I know He’s gotten me all secure and safe. It’s just that my heart struggle to accept some things and prefer to enjoy the hurt because the hurt is there but the promise unseen. Yet, His promise, His Word stands firm, it is the only thing that is eternal and lasting, the only truth in all these mess I am in. For the past days I have been praying, “Lord, please speak to me… please talk to me… please…” and like what I told a friend, it felt like an off-air signal on the radio, not even static. I would read His Word each morning to console me that all is not lost and that He is there, always there. I tried reading between the lines, of figuring out what’s going on, of looking for His will yet the more I try, the more I get side-tracked, lost and frustrated. As much as making sense, they don’t. So imagine my delight when I finally opened yesterday’s Faith Gateway devotional “When You Can’t Feel God“. And I know, He has opened the door I’ve been banging on for the past days to slip me this message. This white space necessitates me to walk by faith and not by sight. I clearly do not see any thing that has been promised, I witnessed it being taken away actually. Right now, clearly, His promise is the only thing I have, His Word, His faithfulness, Him – my God.
For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now the one who has fashioned us for this very purpose is God, who has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.
Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. For we live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it. (2 Corinthians 5:1-9)
To believe and to EARNESTLY SEEK HIM. To go beyond the mental details of knowing Him and come to know Him even more deeper than the words printed in the Bible.
To trust someone is to lovingly depend on him, paraphrasing what Father Luis Sierra mentioned to us last Wednesday. Trust is a big and heavy word, loving dependence on the other hand is a lovely, comforting word that gives me that warm fuzzy feel.
Dependence, trust, confidence, patience, FAITH – words closely-related to each other, interchangeable, huge words, words we know yet we struggle to understand and live out, words we often halfheartedly commit to.
One person, one name, revealed more than a word to me – Abraham.
Most of us know Abraham as the father of Faith. Yet not most of us understand why he is the father of faith. We think that his Continue reading
We all have them. And we all have different reasons why we cannot trust some people, some products, and some situations. What really surprised me is that as much as we praise, glorify, adore, exalt God, He is one being we have trust issues with. Some might acknowledge, some might feel appalled by the idea, some might deny – but just think about and reflect on it. When God tells us, ‘sell all your possessions’, we respond by saying ‘we do not have many possessions’ or ‘I do not own anything, they’re all rented and borrowed’ when in fact we have enough to sell on OLX and earn from it! When God tells us, ‘go and announce’, we respond by making reasons why we just cannot. When God tells us to ‘go forth and multiply’, we take out our calculators and bank accounts and blame poverty to population growth and you know, we’re just being prudent and practical.
Often these trust issues are masked by our want to be in control, our desire for comfort, the rational and practical reasons that we lay out there. Oh and how we make so much sense with our arguments! But unveiling that façade, deep in the heart of our reasons and arguments, it all boils down to that – we do not trust God enough that He will deliver for us, He will deliver us. I know I have not given God my absolute trust and surrender; that a part of me still holds back, too attached to this world. And I continually pray to God that He will work in me and work in my heart, because only He can change my stubborn heart, only He can accomplish and maintain that changed heart of mine.
So, “HOW CAN YOU NOT TRUST GOD?” Appalling? Dismaying? How do you feel when you know someone does not trust you? Why are we so afraid to trust an Almighty Being? Why do we feel we can and He cannot accomplish some things for us? Why cannot we absolutely give Him our trust? I leave you these questions to ponder on and may He show you your answers and your reality. I pray you will open your hearts to acknowledge them and decide in your heart that you will start to trust Him moment by moment.
Learn to trust the journey…
Cos really, it’s not Brazil that is the goal – it’s the maturing of my faith. It’s not getting on that plane and arriving there – it’s the journey from the moment of yes to the moment of least resistance, total surrender and acceptance of His will… so I won’t let this monster of “I want to go to Rio” eat me up again and derail me from seeing the real, bigger picture. Yes, God said I should be clear with my destination – destination = goal and it is every Christian’s goal to run the race and win the prize that is – heaven. (:
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Turn not aside, discouraged one;
Stir up your gift, pursue your goal;
In God’s own time you’ll see Him work;
He’ll give you hope and lift your soul.
– D. DeHaan
Faith generates love. Love feeds faith.
– Heard on 09.12.12
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:13