I posted before an entry about asking, seeking and knocking. It talks about praying, asking God and working with Him. Here’s another one about praying that we all must be aware.
I’ve heard it often – “I’ve been praying but it’s not being given. I’ve been asking and knocking on God’s door but He’s not answering me…” – something along those lines. I’ve even heard worse, that God is not just, that how could God allow such evil and not hear his prayer of justice, that how could God let the wicked triumph, to the point that some would mock and ridicule God’s goodness and mercy. It’s painful to hear when people question God’s authority and talk like God can be right or wrong in His decisions just because what a person want was not given to him.
I would often reply with silence, with a smile or a simple phrase – “in God’s time.” And only God knows when that is. Safest answer, I guess. I’m not very much into debating with people about God’s purpose in their lives, but I can write about it, I’d write them letters if that’s a way to get through them.
In the letter of James, Continue reading
How can you un-want a desire you have that’s second to living
When you feel that it will give your life its meaning?
How can you block a light that is brightly shining
When in the shadows you are spent, hiding?
How can you walk away from your heart’s beating
When it’s the only thing that keeps you breathing?
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Peacefully waiting is the verb, but what do you call the waiting that is peaceful?
It’s something I’ve been enjoying for a few months now. I am surprised, at first, to find that I am no longer fretting or complaining about what is taking so long. The surprise turns into gratitude and of praises for our Lord for He has given me this sense of peace. It has been a long road of getting here, and I wouldn’t have gotten here if I did not acknowledge the fact that I NEED IT, ASKED FOR IT and SOUGHT AFTER IT. (Matthew 7:7-8)
The mind never ceases to ask questions, to provoke, to deceive, to reason out. The heart never ceases to yearn, to desire, to want, to feel. There were moments I wanted to just shut them up. Now, I welcome them with whatever they want to do, with the confidence that He has already provided the answer and these things I go through are just small bumps and are needed for me to draw closer to Him and to better understand and appreciate what He is going to do for me. The desire and the questions are still there, but a sense of calm patience has overtaken. If I have to put into words the feeling, it’s like being told, “Wait, my princess, the wait will be so worth it. For now, enjoy the gifts I am giving you.” And yes, there are so many blessings that might have been overshadowed if I have gotten what I have desired.
Truly, the Lord’s ways and plans are beyond anyone. (Isaiah 55:8-9). And His plans for me are full of hope and is beautiful. (Jeremiah 29:11). Nothing to fret but in all things to have the heart and wait for Him, to provide, to bless, to come. (Psalm 27:14). And these, I really love… Look at the birds of the sky, the lilies of the field, look around at how He has taken care of them (Matthew 6:25-34).
Hasty. While most girls are stereotyped as fickle-minded, I happen to fall in the category of ‘impatient/hasty’. I am not fickle, I was pretty consistent with being hasty, prudence was not in my vocabulary. I was not rushed, but I was rushing with my choices.
For years I’ve been going around in circles, not learning my lessons. If you’ve seen ‘Tangled’ (I ♥ that movie), there’s a scene where Rapunzel was having extreme happy-sad moments: one minute running around all excited and the next crying and sulking. I laughed at that scene, it was funny, but most of all, it reminded me of myself.
I have to hit the brakes.
It’s time to set the fine line with following one’s heart to making hasty decisions. The desire of the heart can be deceiving. The devil knows your desires and will use it against you. Unlike the princesses in fairy tales, I do not have that much margin for error, no prince charming (yet) to save my fall, no fairy godmother to fix broken pieces. It is still best to follow one’s heart. And anyone who tells you to do so advises well. However, following one’s heart requires patience, prudence and a lot of prayer. Only then can God protect your desire and in His time fulfill it.